SONG OF THE DAY: Boston By Augustana
This is one of my favourite songs to emo to. Not that I feel particularly bad or anything, just that I've been thinking back and looking through some old stuff, and for some reason this song just popped into my head.
Here's an interesting fact. Every SONG OF THE DAY is the song I happen to be listening to while I post. And it's on endless repeat until I finish writing the post. In today's case, the song just happens to be "Boston", and to be honest the song carries with it alot of memories.
And the video's so pretty. Though much like one of the top commentors on the video, I do wonder why the piano isn't sinking into the sand or anything. It's a bit "whut" for me.
But how!?
Have you ever had some things you told yourself you'd treasure and keep close to you forever, only to have them lost later on? Sometimes you know that it's you who lost it. Other times, it just... Disappears.
It could be a memory, a momento, even a person. One day, you're holding it so close to your heart, and the next day, it's just gone.
I was looking through some old stuff when I came across a Christmas card. It was from a friend whom I held near and dear to me before. But recently, what with the JC curriculum and lots of other commitments, I hadn't had time to connect with said friend. In fact, the last time I'd seen this friend in real life was probably. A couple of months ago? And I feel pretty guilty for that.
I also found my Temasek Sec yearbook. I remembered all the stupid jokes, all the bitchiness, all the crazy fun, all the backstabbing. Yeah, that was what Temasek was like, at least for me. Everyone would be bitching about everyone else, but pretending to be friends with each other. Each person had their own group of friends who bitched about another group, and the other group would bitch back, but when the two groups meet, they'll be old pals again. I wonder if JC's like that. It either isn't as bad or it's just more well-hidden.
ANYWAY. Looking through these things I started thinking about all the friends I'd lost over the course of the years. A guy I called "best friend" back in Sec 2 started bitching about me when we split classes in Sec 3, and I did the same too. One less bro for me. Another "best friend" of mine turned into a mat after we split classes. A girl whom I called "confidante" back in Sec 2, someone I held so close to me suddenly drifted away once we split classes too. And I'm talking about someone whom I'd talked to everyday, just sharing stupid stories and experiences. I don't know if you still remember these things, if you're reading this, but only you would understand what I'd mean by "Amazonian Body Structure", but I doubt you remember or even read my blog in the first place.
And the thing is, all this loss is usually my own fault. Maybe I didn't hold on tight enough? Maybe I held on too close to the point of being annoying. All I know is that I definitely had a part to play in the losing of these close friends.
I'm thankful that I have the friends that I do now though. Though they'll never replace whatever memories I have of all the old friends I used to have, The House Comm people with all the crazy shit, my CCA mates for all the laughs through the tough times, those random people that for some reason I just know and spend time with anyway, my classmates, etc, all have created great and definitely memorable experiences for me.
On a side note, I'm now in 11S122. My previous class, 11S502, had only 9 people. Sadly, 2 of my classmates retained, leaving the headcount to 7. So the timetable comm apparently merged 11s502 with 11S122. GOOD THEN.
I have nothing else to say, but I shall leave you with this confusing picture.
Courtesy of Wilfred Wong.
Chai and Valerie are in our secondary school uniforms, while Benedict is in a traditional malay costume. WHAT?
Going back to the corner where I first saw you.
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