Wednesday, November 30, 2011

You and I, my dear friend.

You and I are more alike than you'd think.

I just came back from a heart-to-heart session with Gideon, Ryan, Benedict and Wee Pin. It started out as pretty standard fare, stories of lovers lost and all that drama. Made me a little sad at first, thinking back about all the stupid shit I'd been through. And right now I feel pretty crappy.

Anyway it was near the end of the session that shit started to get heavy. All this is making me feel even worse, cause I can totally relate to it.

Sometimes relationships really aren't worth getting into. And yet I still complain about feeling lonely and stuff.

BGR stuff can really ruin friendships.

Which leads me to another point.

I don't really know. I feel for so many people, people I call close friends, confidantes. But do they see me in the same light?

Do they have the same trust in me the trust I have in them?

Do they know that I'm there for them?

Do they know that behind all this joking, all this buddy-buddy stuff, I'll be there to support them?

Do they know that I feel for them, and their burdens are mine too?

Will they hesitate if I ask them for help? I wouldn't if they did.

It's not that they won't do such things.

I'm just not close enough to them to know if they do for sure.

Guess I'll just have to get to know them better.

And make sure they know what they mean to me.



You and I, my dear friend, are more alike than you think.

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

PADDLE PADDLE PADDLE PADDLE

I have just come back from The Paddlers' Club camp.

Okay, fine, not really just. But it ended yesterday and "carried over" till today in the form of tent-washing, so close enough.

SONG OF THE DAY: The Paddling Song by Myself! :D



BHB SIOL.

This was from way back in April. This video is pretty damn messed up. I was freaking tired as hell while recording the video, and the lyrics were made up as I went along. Turned out pretty okay I guess. Consider this the Paddlers' theme song, or at least my theme song for them if you must. I wonder what the J1s are gonna think of this crap when they come in.

I suggest you hear it at least once for some lulz.


Yes, lulz.


ANYWAY, PADDLERS' CAMP.




It's been a while since I've slept in a tent. That's all I can say.

First day was pretty shaggaristical.

Kayaked from Pasir Ris Park to Punggol, then Pulau Ubin, then to Changi beach. DOESN'T THAT SOUND FAR. It's about 18km I think, which really isn't as hard as it sounds, but for people who haven't kayaked before you could go all "Eh yesterday I paddled 18km" to which they'll probably go "SIAO AH.

Anyway upon reaching Changi beach (at about 2plus I think?) we arranged our kayaks and started pitching our tents, after which we did possibly the most mature thing ever: Build sandcastles. It's not like we were forced to go build sandcastles or anything, but we had nothing else to do, and the beach was so nearby.

Ever tried digging a really deep hole in the sand, only to suddenly find water filling up said hole, like out of nowhere? Yeah, we wanted to make a bigass hole just for the sake of it, when suddenly water started, well, filling it up. So we took the idea and ran with it, trying to use these holes as sources of water as basins of sort, and we tried creating a river system with lakes and meandering rivers and mini-waterfalls, all on the beach. Sadly though, there are no pictures other than that of the deepest hole that we dug, which we called the Shrine of the Seven Giants, in reference to the seven of us who wasted our afternoon building the stupid shit.


The black stuff is supposed to read "VII", or 7 in Roman numerals for the uninformed.
You can actually see the hole at the bottom of the picture.
Also, this is the first time I've written a caption that has had more than one line.


Then came the ridiculousness which was the night. Leon helped us buy this beer which was honestly too strong to be beer. It was like, 8.8% or something? At least twice the normal alcohol content.

Here's Wee Pin's account of what happened that night.

"We went to booze at changi village.
Eat cockles and nasi lemak.
Super uncle."

Yeah. What he didn't mention though was when they were ass-ed me like shit. Chin Yue had his own can of beer but he didn't like it, so he'd distract me by pointing somewhere, to which I'd look, and he'd then spike my Ice Lemon Green Tea with some of his beer. Apparently I finished about a quarter of his beer without realising it. And the rest of the guys there were all laughing at me, but I didn't know what they were laughing about, so I was sad. ):


Apparently "You're Not In On the Joke" is the name of a Cobra Starship song, so whatever I'll just use this picture.

The next day we paddled back to Pasir Ris Park. We docked at about 12-ish, leaving us a helluva lot of time to participate in our next activity... Which was sandcastle building, a la LTC. We pretty much recreated the giant hole thing, except in a more organised fashion. Sadly no pictures again. ):

After sandcastle building, it happened to be low tide, so we went down and found a pit of clay. Clay kinda feels like wet play-dough, if you don't know. We took turns trying to throw the stuff at Sandeep, after which we tried making the pit deeper. Eventually we made it so that one could sink into the pit about thigh-deep, which is insane.

NO PICTURES AGAIN ARGH.

After that was barbeque and night walk, neither of which was interesting. The night and the next day went by uneventfully. I reached home yesterday at about 5plus, played Skyrim for abit, then slept from 6-ish to 7.30 this morning, missing dinner and everything. I then went to school with a few paddlers to wash the tents with ODAC, since we borrowed the tents from them. After the washing was done, Pin Leon and I tried kicking some soccer ball up the stairs at the ODAC room, where I SPLIT MY PANTS. SIAN.

So I sat around while covering the hole and watched Pin and Leon play. We then had lunch at Carl's Jr, which Leon had not eaten at before WTF. After we finished eating we sat in Carl's Jr and played Skyrim on my laptop, since I'd brought it along. We did this for more than an hour. THIS IS WHAT SKYRIM DOES TO YOU.

Remember, all this while I was in my split pants.

Anyway, I came home after that, played Skyrim till dinner, after which I started writing this post, and after this I'll be playing Skyrim SO BYE NOW.



My sentiments exactly.





We were both young when I first saw you.

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Things come and go.

And then sometimes they're lost forever.

SONG OF THE DAY: Boston By Augustana



This is one of my favourite songs to emo to. Not that I feel particularly bad or anything, just that I've been thinking back and looking through some old stuff, and for some reason this song just popped into my head.

Here's an interesting fact. Every SONG OF THE DAY is the song I happen to be listening to while I post. And it's on endless repeat until I finish writing the post. In today's case, the song just happens to be "Boston", and to be honest the song carries with it alot of memories.

And the video's so pretty. Though much like one of the top commentors on the video, I do wonder why the piano isn't sinking into the sand or anything. It's a bit "whut" for me.


But how!?

Have you ever had some things you told yourself you'd treasure and keep close to you forever, only to have them lost later on? Sometimes you know that it's you who lost it. Other times, it just... Disappears.

It could be a memory, a momento, even a person. One day, you're holding it so close to your heart, and the next day, it's just gone.

I was looking through some old stuff when I came across a Christmas card. It was from a friend whom I held near and dear to me before. But recently, what with the JC curriculum and lots of other commitments, I hadn't had time to connect with said friend. In fact, the last time I'd seen this friend in real life was probably. A couple of months ago? And I feel pretty guilty for that.

I also found my Temasek Sec yearbook. I remembered all the stupid jokes, all the bitchiness, all the crazy fun, all the backstabbing. Yeah, that was what Temasek was like, at least for me. Everyone would be bitching about everyone else, but pretending to be friends with each other. Each person had their own group of friends who bitched about another group, and the other group would bitch back, but when the two groups meet, they'll be old pals again. I wonder if JC's like that. It either isn't as bad or it's just more well-hidden.

ANYWAY. Looking through these things I started thinking about all the friends I'd lost over the course of the years. A guy I called "best friend" back in Sec 2 started bitching about me when we split classes in Sec 3, and I did the same too. One less bro for me. Another "best friend" of mine turned into a mat after we split classes. A girl whom I called "confidante" back in Sec 2, someone I held so close to me suddenly drifted away once we split classes too. And I'm talking about someone whom I'd talked to everyday, just sharing stupid stories and experiences. I don't know if you still remember these things, if you're reading this, but only you would understand what I'd mean by "Amazonian Body Structure", but I doubt you remember or even read my blog in the first place.

And the thing is, all this loss is usually my own fault. Maybe I didn't hold on tight enough? Maybe I held on too close to the point of being annoying. All I know is that I definitely had a part to play in the losing of these close friends.

I'm thankful that I have the friends that I do now though. Though they'll never replace whatever memories I have of all the old friends I used to have, The House Comm people with all the crazy shit, my CCA mates for all the laughs through the tough times, those random people that for some reason I just know and spend time with anyway, my classmates, etc, all have created great and definitely memorable experiences for me.

On a side note, I'm now in 11S122. My previous class, 11S502, had only 9 people. Sadly, 2 of my classmates retained, leaving the headcount to 7. So the timetable comm apparently merged 11s502 with 11S122. GOOD THEN.

I have nothing else to say, but I shall leave you with this confusing picture.

Courtesy of Wilfred Wong.



Chai and Valerie are in our secondary school uniforms, while Benedict is in a traditional malay costume. WHAT?





Going back to the corner where I first saw you.

Can somebody please tell me...

What the hell is wrong with this world?

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

When it dawns,

It dawns IN FIRE.

Okay la I don't think alot of you will understand what I just said. Let's get conventions out of the way first.

SONG OF THE DAY: The Skyrim Epic Rap by Dan Bull



This song is freaking epic. I mean. Just watch it. The dude takes some orchestral shit and makes it into some kind of sick beat. Mad props to the DJ who mixed this crazy shit. Aw man hell yeah I'm likka nigga talking straight up in this bitch.


nigga nigga nigga nigga nigga nigga nigga

Let's get that out of the way. Anyway, you guys should know that I LOVE videogames, to the point where if you're a girl and you happen to play videogames I'll just seriously FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU.

There's this game out, The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim, which I'm totally into right now. It has one boring-as-hell name for sure, but the game's far from that, and the song pretty much sums it up.


This game has already sucked so many hours from my short life.

I'm sure many of you know about a game called Grand Theft Auto, where you can pretty much go around in a city and blow shit up and basically do anything you want. This game's kinda like that, except with dragons and horses instead of prostitutes and cars.

And in this game, you can seriously do anything.

You can become some cat thing and sneak around in the shadows, assassinating people silently; nobody will know what had hit them.


I wasn't kidding about becoming a cat thing.

Or you can choose to be as subtle as a white man and a ghetto convention, and take the role as a Nordic warrior and go on a rampage, killing everything in sight.


Ouch, dude.

The game's just so versatile. Within the first couple of hours of playing the game, my character (called A'algahut, see what I did there? hurhurhur) had bought a house, stolen a horse, gotten caught and thrown into jail, escaped from jail, raided bandit hideouts, climbed mountains, become a vampire, cured himself of said vampirism and done all sorts of other crazy shit. And then there's dragons. They just swoop in at you out of nowhere, and you've only got yourself to depend on.

It comes in at you, you ready your weapon, and it's either you fight, or die trying.


A mixture of feelings ranging from "Awesome" to "Shit-in-my-pants fear".

Pin's playing it too. Leon's playing it right now. Like, really, right now. Wilfred wants the game I think. And once I finish this blog post I'll be playing it too.

Y'know, if any of you want it, you could always ask me. For such a huge game, it's relatively small in size, and can fit in a thumbdrive. Also, though it looks so damn pretty, it can run on pretty low-end computers too. SO GET IT NOW.

/end_nerdgasm.




Today was a pretty tiring day. Had to teach the whole Atlas (or at least whoever showed up) the Atlas Mass Dance. I'm damn proud of the Atlas dance eh actually. I treat it much like a mother who has a child but isn't sure as to who the father is cause she'd slept with too many men. In other words, it's like an actualization of all the ideas from so many people, including my own.

I mean, we all put so much effort into it. So to see my dearest Atlas members join in the dance and enjoy themselves while dancing it. Just, wow.

The cheering session was ridiculously fun as well, if a bit overstretched. I can confidently say we did the Meridian medley at least 6-7 times, along with a healthy dose of "O" cheers and a shower of everyone's favourite house cheers. And to explain to those who don't understand, we did so many school cheers just now since we were prompted to inculcate a stronger school spirit, rather than just house spirit. I like doing the cheers an unnecessarily large number of times actually, 75% due to school spirit, 23% since we were told to, and 2% since I'm a troll.


Yes, a troll. Didn't see that coming did you?

Highlight of the session for me was when we all did Callisto's cheers for them since they weren't present. And when each house purposely cheered other houses' cheers. All in all it was pretty damn fun, standing up there with the Atlas House Comm (plus Eugene and Joshua and other disiao kia at one point) and screaming our lungs out. My voice is still hoarse and sensual from OGL camp, and the cheer session just now didn't help one bit, but screw it that was fun. I wonder how Constance felt seeing her 9th House Comm going all "When I say Triton, you say is the best!". Hope these good vibes carry over to the 10th batch of Meridians and House Comm members.

After that a bunch of us stayed in school and screwed around.

On a side note, you really should watch Charles try to breakdance, or just dance in general. It's pure poetry in motion HAHAHAHA.

Had dinner at KFC with Pin, XH and a bunch of Miranda people, then took the train home with Charlotte.




OKAY ENOUGH OF THIS SKYRIM NOW.





Let's get lost tonight.

Monday, November 21, 2011

Ho-li-day

Yeah right. Y'know, they should just drop the pretence and call it "school" instead of "holiday lectures". Nobody's fooled, MJ admin.

Here's the SONG OF THE DAY.

Somewhere Only We Know by Keane


This song pretty much describes how I feel right now.


A beautiful rendition of how I feel right now.

It's so weird, realising that people all around me have their others. Something that to be honest, I'm pretty jealous about. Although I really am happy for them, it just feels pretty saddening to realise that I'm not in the same club as them.

I FEEL LIKE A NOOB.


Unrelated picture?


On a side note, the last word in Nicole's name is Boon, which happens to be noob backwards.


Woah, a visual pun! But you're used to that by now.


Couple of days ago was my OGL camp. It was okay I guess. Have to thank the Councillors for really doing a great job with the camp, really appreciate it. I think it was damn funny how everything ended with the O cheer or the MJ medley.

I'm not really gonna talk alot about OGL camp. It was one of those "you had to be there" kind of things. Doing school cheers after a dance step is learnt, Harvind going all horny on stage, "ZEZUS", Adam Lamhorng and ah qua chia, all that had to be seen in real life to be understood. Only thing I will say though is that this camp really brought the OGLs together, not just inside a house, but amongst the houses as well. There are now so many more familiar faces I can "WASSUP BRO" at, and that feels pretty good in general.

Oh yeah, before I forget, do go here and read.

http://mrwheelfret.blogspot.com

It's Wilfred's blog! He writes a bit like myself, even mentions it in his first ever post. HONORED.


I accidentally googled "horon", but it seems appropriate.

Today was mass dance vetting. I'm pretty damn proud of my Atlas. They did so damn well! It made me as delighted as a little girl at a Justin Bieber concert which is giving out free barbies whilst being held in a bouncy castle. With Hannah Montana being shown at the same time.

In fact, we're hard at work discussing it right now. As in, the Atlas House Comm minus Wee Pin and Nicole.



Very hard at work.





I am lazy, and I have nothing to talk about.




Never again.

Sunday, November 20, 2011

it's 3:30

So here I am, sitting on my sleeping bag, typing this on my handphone while my bunkmates - my darling OGLs, are all fast asleep. We have to wake up in about 3 hours' time, yet I'm still not even trying to fall asleep.

I think pin's sleeping outside on the table or something. I wanted to talk to wilfred, but he's caught up in another problem. Leon's stargazing in the assembly plaza I think, and the girls are all resting in their bunks.

Everything's so serene, so still. Save the occasional sleepyhead changing position, I'm the only one moving.

It's so strange that the people so noisy, so full of life are now those in front of me, sleeping quietly. It's so strange how a hot, bright day can turn into this dark, cold dusk. It's so strange to be aware that you're surrounded by so many friends, yet you're still pretty much alone.

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Guess what I just remembered.

I remembered that I actually have a blog! Yes, after a month of seriously forgetting that I have a blog. I am back! This is actually the second of finally-post-after-damn-long kind of posts. I see a trend coming on!


Nothing really. ._.

Here's a revelation: I actually do have something to write about!

Also, I'm lying.


Ah, how this picture has grown on me, likka cancer.

I'll just write whatever comes to mind then.

SONG OF THE DAY: The Scientist by Coldplay



This has to be one of my most favourite songs ever. It's so melancholic, so haunting. And the video is downright brilliant. First thing you're gonna do when you watch it is realise that Chris Martin's teeth are pretty messed up. Then it gets to 0:27, and something doesn't seem right about the video. Then it hits you; holy shit, the video's backwards.

How did they do that? How did Chris manage to sync up his mouth to the lyrics (though it fails sometimes) even though the video's playing backwards?

So he sang the song forwards, took note of the mouth movements, reversed them, then mimicked them... Backwards?


I don't even want to think about it anymore.


Hot topic recently: PROJECT WORK

I'm so glad that the journey's finally coming to an end, save for I&R which I feel is the most shoot-yourself-in-the-foot thing to ever be conceived, cause we're pretty much finding flaws in our proposal and pointing them out, and suggesting workarounds instead of implementing them in our Written Report. I mean, seriously?

I know alot of people have finished their OP already. Mine's tomorrow afternoon, and I CANNOT WAIT to get it over and done with. Seriously damn irritated with a certain PW groupmate of mine. Bossy shit, seriously. I know it's damn bastard but she's a scholar and she probably won't read this LOL.


Aw man, this is a serious pun-ishment! HAHAHA *dies*

I mean, she's not even the group leader, yet she churns out classic quotes like "Please never ever give us nonsensical work again!", "Take this seriously, i won't tolerant the one who doesn't do anything." and "Weilun, how can i believe u anymore?" all because I was in church and I didn't reply her message immediately.

OKAY that's enough bitchiness.

Anyway I've had enough of this PW shit, so I seriously am looking forward to its end.

Thinking back to that one week where all we had was hardcore PW/Chinese. I actually looked forward to the days when I had Chinese! That was seriously a bad period in all of our lives. The only things I achieved during that week were a bunch of mock "posters" for whenever someone messed up in their grammar while talking, or the occasional typo.


"Seriously can't wait to go home and take some kind of ultra comfortable bathe."




"So once you're done with all that just send to me ah! Thanks you!"
"Its strengths are the fact."




"I need you to complete the nock-ups by today to put into the WR."




Hahaha, good times.

SPEAKING OF GOOD TIMES.

Damnnnn, I seriously can't wait for OGL camp! Super excited. Though the fact that we had to do freaking game proposals put me off initially, now I'm done with them so whatever.

Come to think about it, I remember my initial shock while looking at the list of confirmed OGLs actually. So many people that I'd expected to get in didn't, and alot of people who I didn't expect to get in did. Like Terence, who came to Atlas, though he's from Miranda. My initial reaction was just. WTF.


Just. WTF.

I mean, I expected him to get in, yeah, BUT NOT INTO ATLAS RIGHT. Pleasant surprise nonetheless hahaha.

But those who got in deserved to get in nonetheless, one way or another. It was the teachers who picked the finalised list of OGLs, so whatever. I think if I wasn't in the House Comm I wouldn't have made it as an OGL hahaha. Plus I'd totally have lost at the interviews, if the interviewers were as assholic as myself.


First Challenge of the OGL Interviews: Please Take A Seat!


ALSO SPEAKING OF GOOD TIMES.

Wilfred has a waterproof camera. We went to swim. He brought the camera.

UNDERWATER GOOD TIMES.






Kudos to you if you know who I'm impersonating LOL.


And, in an attempt to recreate this:





HAHAHAHA.

Good times and good vibes all around haha. Can't wait to screw around with the boys once PW (finally) ends.

Till then, I'll be geeking out with all the games I've downloaded recently.





Does anyone here remember/know Sonic the Hedgehog? Cause if you do, then you are awesome, cause Sonic the Hedgehog is awesome.

Also, if any of you happen to want the games, just ask me, I'll be happy to pass them to you, cause I am a pirate. (Y)

Anyway, that's all for now. Back to geekdom for me! Ciao now. :D





walking this lonely road.