Reality's kicking in.

Promo's coming in about a month's time. HOW!?

SONG OF THE DAY: Dynamo Of Volition by Jason Mraz



This dude seriously has his wordplay down. I wish I was as fluent with the way words and rhyme work. He's like an acoustic rapper, if that makes any sense.


I don't feel particularly humorous today. Let's talk about something we all know about then, shall we?

Do you believe in love? I believe in love. But it's so hard to find it. I think it exists, but I don't think I've ever encountered it before. I've mistaken myself for being in love before, definitely. I remember back when I was in secondary school, all the stupid things, all the stupid feelings. From sec 1 through 4. Even beyond, you could say.

I've been thinking alot about love recently. Not that I'm in love or anything, I think I'm far from it honestly. But it's just one of those moments where you ponder about one thing, and the thought doesn't go away. It's like a catchy little tune that gets stuck in your head, that tune that you'll probably think of when you're walking along the road.

I remember back in secondary school, I defined love as "Feeling for somebody". Not in the way that you feel for someone as in you have feelings for the person, but in the sense that you really feel for that someone else. When she's happy, I'd be elated, when she's sad, I'd be depressed that kind of thing. Honestly now, I find it really hard to properly define it.

The way I can't really put a finger to it really bothers me. Back in secondary school when I was in a relationship, I was so sure of what love was, and I was so sure that I was in love. Now that I think back, I'm not too sure anymore. All I know is that back then, when I thought about love, I'd feel so... Warm. But now I feel so impartial to it.

I think I wasn't a very good boyfriend back then. If you're reading this, I'm sorry if I'd ever seemed inadequate to you. We've moved on now, and I sincerely wish you and him a happy relationship, and that he gives you all the love he can, cause that's what you deserve. That's what any girl ought to deserve, honestly.

I ponder as to whether I'm able to actually love properly, come to think of it. I see people around me jumping into relationships all the time, and I see some of them falling out as well. I wonder, how do they do it? How could you be so sure that the person's right for you? I've seen couples jump blindly into relationships, and their bond is strong as ever. How do they get the courage to close their eyes and take that leap? I wonder if I'm able to take that first step in love, to just. Go.

I wish I was as brave as them. I wish that I could be someone who had the courage to say "Hey, I think you're special, and though we're just friends, I think we could be so much more. Would you take my hand and take this chance with me?" I'd failed to do so before. A wasted chance. I wish I had the courage to go at the slightest glimmer of hope. I'd seen one-sided relationships blossom into the sweetest of things. All it took was time.

I wish I had the confidence. I wish I had the courage. I wish I could remember what it felt like to love and be loved.




See the stars in the sky, how they shine for you and me.